April 22, 2009

Critics

I have done a lot of thinking about writing lately.  I devoted four years of my life to analyzing literature. Now, I can’t help but think that I should have kept my creative writing minor and majored in something completely different.  Don’t get me wrong: I gained endless amounts of valuable knowledge from studying English.  I don’t regret it.  However, I now realize that I want nothing to do with literary criticism.  I enjoyed it, but really it distracted me from my real connection with literature.  The true art is the creation of fiction.  And so I hand in my critiques.  Give them a grade if you must, but it doesn’t make much of a difference anymore.  I resign from wielding cold literary theory against thin paper pages; my only job has ever been to fill them up with ink.

This presents me with a new kind of blog.  I dare say that the general use of the blog on the web has gone through a major transition in the past several years.  It began as an on line journal, if I remember correctly.  Now it seems to be the new form in which everything appears from movie reviews to political commentary.  The argument has been made that “now anyone can be a critic.”  Well, everyone has always been a critic.  The difference now is the extent to which everyone can make their critiques public.  Everyone is a critic because everyone has turned their blog into mini newspaper.

I attempted to write a book review site, but now that I am quite sick of hearing everyones’ damn opinion on every novel, novella, short story, or poem, I QUIT.  I would say that it’s back to the on line journal, but I’m not even sure about that.  I suppose the best thing to do is to make it a free-form blog.  I’ll share my thoughts and experiences with you as they come and as they are prevalent.

Lots of transitions in my life have occurred.  I will share them with you soon.

March 8, 2009

Karma…?

I hit a semi last Monday.  More specifically, the wind blew my car into a semi.  According to the police this happens a lot. My response to that is: “…Uh, it shouldn’t…”  I don’t see how that is fair.  Nature vs The Weight of a Car.  I am poor. I can’t afford a Mercedes with a smash-proof heavy frame.  Nor do I want a huge truck or mini van that eats gas like a fat man eats Krispy Cream Donuts.  What are my odds against nature?  Well, apparently my odds are fine. I am miracuously alive, and just bruised.  I wonder why on earth my head didn’t fly off, or why I didn’t break something at the very least.  A crash like that and you figure that Dr. Gregory House would be trying to figure out why I’m bleeding internally in my toes and my lungs are filled with anti-freeze.  I didn’t take a picture of the car, but here’s what I found online that resembles it:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FEAST YOUR EYES ON THAT.

My car is now obsolete.  And whose fault is it?  Nature’s.  Is it good karma, or bad karma I ask you?  I’m alive = good.  My car is dead = bad.  God called and she was obviously trying to tell me something.

I am kidding, of course. I am more important than my now deceased Saturn Ion.  I’m pretty grateful to be alive at the moment.  And I have a new appreciation for my recent healthy obsession with Lily Allen.  Why be ashamed?  She’s British.  She’s cute. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Someone pass me a napkin?  I just drooled a bit.

In better, less pop-music-y, news: I got a full-time job in Chicago finally.  I am moving closer to BBT (Bare Boned Theatre) so I can continue to write for them. YAY!  I am excited about the move. I love Chicago…even if it is freezing there…

I finished reading The Watchmen.  I liked it…I think…I don’t really know.  The concept of reading a book with pictures of characters who are talking is a bit surreal for me.  It’s just the visual age.  People can’t create images in their head from words on a page, they have to see it.  This new concept of the graphic novel (of course it’s not that new at all, but it is to me) makes me sad.  But I have to admit that The Watchmen is a good story.  I can’t imagine that the movie is any good though; I don’t see how it could work.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

See: Dr. Manhattan is sad that Hollywood has ruined his reputation. 

WOULD SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE AN ORIGINAL FUCKING MOVIE?!  I am sick of all these adaptations.

February 27, 2009

WoRdVoMiT

Everything is a carbon copy of a carbon copy of a carbon copy…

I have been all over the place lately – physically and mentally.  I find myself constantly en route to Chicago or to Lansing.  It’s a four hour drive that I can now do without batting an eye.  And yet, I’m quite aware that every time I travel I am upping my chances of a car accident.  Or, the fact that my mother is aware of this is making me more aware of it.  Familia Paranoia – is it contagious?  What is happening are two things: I write for a small theatre in Chicago AND I am searching for a job there.  I think some of you may sort of understand how important it is to me to keep up with my commitment to the theatre, but, no, you really have no idea.  It’s important enough that I am willing to drive back and forth constantly – that’s all any of you can really gather.  It’s an amazing experience for me – that much (I’m sorry, but) you cannot fathom.

Three of my friends have passed away in the last few months.  One I only met the other weekend at a party, and a day later he was gone.  Not much time to allow for any kind of attachment, but I did feel shock.  It’s quite complicated for me to wrap my head around it.  One day someone is having conversations about religion, philosophy, and film; they are making jokes, laughing, genuinely interested in everyone around them.  The next day, they have taken their own life.  It’s almost impossible for me to grasp at this moment.

I am entering a new part of my life.  People are getting married.  People are dying.  My thoughts are more lucid and I can articulate them much more clearly than I ever could.  Not to mention that I can articulate them to complete strangers at times.  Have I really spent that much time in my life not talking?  Or, maybe I can just hear myself these days. I haven’t written a blog like this in ages and don’t worry, I won’t do it too often.  My life just seems to be in upheaval. it’s not good, it’s not bad, it’s just a bit scary.

Stay tuned for more productive stuff when I have the time and the energy.

January 13, 2009

Skinny, or just privileged?

 

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Skinny Bitch

Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin

 

This book has a catchy title that the authors chose (and they state that they chose it) to make money. If people knew that Freedman and Barnouin were promoting veganism, I doubt they would purchase the book. Luckily, they’re not idiots. They’re skinny bitches.

I understand the push for veganism. The FDA has gotten a bit out of hand. Our health and our bodies are no longer their main source for concern. Note, furthermore, that our well-being was never their concern to begin with. I also do agree with their view on vegetarianism. I’ve felt the same way for years, and the book finally pushed me to cut it out of my diet completely.

However (and there is always a “however”), I was taken a-back by their claim that people often use their hard earned money on things that aren’t as nearly important as food. According to the authors, refusing to purchase organic, locally grown, vegan, and/or vegetarian products because they are too expensive is not an excuse. We should stop spending money on other things apparently. I have to ask these two young ladies – are you poor?

I doubt it. I also doubt that they’ve considered that some people don’t have the luxury of saving money that they could have spent on other objects. Some people can barely afford food from WalMart. Perhaps the agenda here should be to make good food more affordable, to challenge the Federal Government to take an interest in our health, not to insult us with their naively classist candor. The authors also seem to think that PETA is the main authority on all things pertaining to a “cruelty-free” diet.  Sometimes I do agree with PETA, but let’s face it – they are a bit outrageous.  Boycotting everything under the sun and exploiting it in a violently gruesome way is not always the right way to get your agenda noticed.  More often than not, PETA forgets that not all people think of animals as beings with rights.  They need to remember that animals do not have the same rights as human beings, they are simply entitled to them. 

I digress.

Most people will not finish this book. It is written by a model and a woman who has her master’s in holistic nutruition.  That’s enough to turn the majority of americans away from the message. Their main, and probably most important points in the book are as follows: trust no one and use your head.  I would suggest that anyone who picks up this book be quite suspicious of everyone’s opinion on food (especially the authors’), and take what they wish to from this collection of insightful (and sometimes nauseating) pointers.

January 8, 2009

“Once I was very brave.”

That Magnificent Part the Chorus Does about Tragedy

By Lisa Olstein

THERE IS A theory of crying that tears are the body’s way of releasing excess elements from the brain.  There is a theory of dreaming that each one serves to mend something torn, like cells of new skin lining up to cover a hole.  I’m not one to have dreams about flying, but last week we were thirty feet above the bay – this was where we went to discuss things, so that no matter what we decided it was only we two out there, and we’d have to fly back together.  I’m not one to have dreams where animals can speak, but last night a weeping mare I’d been told to bridle wanted me to save her.  We discussed what was left of her ability to take children for rides – how much to trot, how much to canter – but I wasn’t sure I could do it, having already bridled her and all.  I was once very brave.  Once I was very brave.  I was very brave once.  I boarded a plane before dawn.  I carried all those heavy bags.  I stayed up the whole night before folding the house into duffel bags.  I took a curl from the base of your skull and opened the door to the rusty orange wagon and weighed those heavy duffel bags and smiled at the airport official.  I boarded a tiny propeller plane and from a tiny window I watched you walk back to the rusty orange wagon.  They say the whole world is warming by imperceptible degrees.  I watched the rusty orange wagon go whizzing by.

January 7, 2009

With a sigh of relief, I exhale out 2008.

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I spent my New Year’s with Rachel and Tom.  These fabulous two individuals. It couldn’t have been a better idea.  I hadn’t seen them in what seemed like ages, and in reality was about a year.  They introduced me to their new (and quite smiley) friends.

Lindsay and Gabe

Lindsay and Gabe

Jim (and Rach)

Jim (and Rach)

Miriam

Miriam

 

 

 

 

 

I met many more people than this, but it only lasted for a short three days.  I will have to return, however. Tuesday night I arrived after driving for 10PM hours. A long drive, but I am accustomed to it and absolutely can’t stand planes and trains. I met Nicole and Miriam, two of Rachel’s (dready) friends who attacked me with hugs the very moment I walked in the door. We wandered to her drum circle after eating a yummy magpie-style meal that Tom put together for us. I was a bit low key on the music-making since it was my first time, but I thoroughly enjoyed dancing about during drum circle.

The next day, while Rachel was enslaved at work, I drove out to Norristown to see Ms. Cory French.

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I was also introduced to her wonderful doggie, Maya, and her boyfriend, Jeff.

Jeff and Maya

Jeff and Maya

  Cory and Maya

Insanely good and sweet people. Cory and I went out to lunch together at PF Chang’s and ate our body weight in delicious food. I then drove back in nasty traffic to Rachel’s place in West Philadelphia. She managed to get off work early. Lindsay, Gabe, Tom, Rach, and I went to get thai food, stopped by Tom and Gabe’s place for a bit, and then ventured out to greet our New Year’s party. I think we might have had the intention of party hopping, but didn’t budge from Meghan’s place.
Our wonderful hostess

Our wonderful hostess

Gabe and Alyssa

Gabe and Alyssa

Tom fell asleep

Tom fell asleep

We didn’t get to bed until about 4AM, as to be expected of a bunch of twenty-something rambunctious adults.  The next day Rachel and I had planned to go have breakfast together. We didn’t get up until 1PM.  And then we slowly tried to get up, but to no avail. We didn’t actually leave the house until 4PM on a search for caffine and some food.
Once our bodies were stuffed with wraps and beverages, Miriam and Jim came to pick us up. It was Jim’s birthday and so we celebrated by drinking and hoola hooping.
Dancing and Hooping

Dancing and Hooping

Tom and I went out the next day to find some presents for Anni, and to just generally hang out. I acquired a bunch of stuff, including my favorite incense and Truth is God by Gandhi. We then ran over to Melrose Diner with every intention of getting a slice of pie. What we ended up with was an entire coconut cream pie.
I left Philadelphia about half an hour later than intended, but was armed with dinner (a tofu hoagie that Rachel, Miriam, and Jim had highly recommended for me), which was quite difficult to eat while driving.  I pulled into a rest stop evetually so that I didn’t have sauted tofu stains all over my shirt. I made snail’s-pace time driving to Jersey, primarily because  it was during rush hour and getting dark. Luke literally had to come outside and flag me down when I arrived at his house.
 I unfortunately have very few pictures of the rest of my trip, but I figured it was better to be in the moment than ruin it with breaking out the Awkward Machine (this is what I call my camera).
Luke and I talked and hung out in his basement with his friend. It was nice just to sit and relax with him – something I haven’t done for longer than a year. I’m not sure what time we passed out, but I woke up sometime around 11AM. We grabbed some bagels (yummm Jersey bagels), and hung out a bit more before he drove to the Highway ramp with me following behind. Quite considerate.
I drove into NOWHERE (AKA Lewis Run, PA) around 6PM. Anni’s mom greeted me with dinner and chocolate birthday cake. Yes, Happy Birthday to me!   Anni and I had a blast exchanging gifts (I had lugged presents from Rachel over there as well) and doing some catching up.
Puffiness

Puffiness

We spent most of the night out at the bars dancing our butts off.  A very forthcoming gentlemen informed us, as the bar closed, that he respected “what we had,” and thought it was, “really beautiful.” He had assumed Anni and I were a couple no doubt, most likely because we weren’t dancing in our respective personal spaces. That might be putting it mildly ;)
After the bar fun, we went to get food. In our drunken stupor we got pizza (Anni is vegan mind you, and I ordered pepperoni eventhough I don’t eat red meat), and Anni snagged some Texas Toast.  We unfortunately woke her Mother up upon our return. I’m surprised we didn’t wake the neighbors up as well. Again, to bed around 4AM and to rise around 12PM. We ate our purchased Texas Toast, sat around with her cat, Sam, and then it was time for me to depart.
All said and done, it was a great trip. Seeing these people specifically gives me a dose of happiness that I don’t get very often. They all know me better, love me, and except me more than almost any other group of friends. It was a great way to start off my New Year – with uniqueness and joy beyond compare.
 

December 18, 2008

Sex, Love, and California

 

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Quakeland,  by Francesca Lia Block

I’m partial to the Weetzie Bat series. Anything else written by Block is bound to make me go, “Uh…not at good as Weetzie.” There are so many things about Block’s writing, however, that I appreciate and love.

What bothers me mostly about this book, unfortunately, is the fact that it is so fractured. It is clearly metafiction (I’ve read a lot of metafiction lately), which at times bothers me. Dreams are another thing. Talking about dreams is just such a fluffy thing to do. And there is an inherent “fluffy” tone to this novel, I would argue. Life isn’t all about men and love and pain. I prefer the “In her own words” section of the novel. It feels more real. It feels more solid.

Like I said in the first paragraph, despite my qualms with the book, I will still continue to read and love Block’s work. She hits a vein in my heart. Often I feel like I am reading about myself; about every girl who has ever felt alone and frightened. Her writing is also very empowering. It suggests that inner-love is a greater force than love for another or sex (there is a bit too much of it in here, mind you. But I suppose the character’s need for sex is one thing that makes her internally burdened and unfulfilled).

Anyhow, the novel is powerful. It is moving and heart-breaking. I did enjoy it.

December 16, 2008

Two

 

Ryan Adams posted a video on YouTube the other day. It’s the acoustic version of the song “Two,” from his album Easy Tiger. I have to say that this version is better than the original.

December 15, 2008

Everything is remembered, especially in italics.

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Everything is Illuminatedby Jonathan Safran Foer

This book is not everything that I hoped it would be.  I had heard that the book was inspirational, that I would love it.  “Well,” I thought after closing the last page, “I didn’t love it.”  I enjoyed it, of course.  Foer has an intensely creative brain.  His stories are bright, brilliant little gems. Trachimbrod is a town that I can see and picture with its horribly lengthy history (all of which is recorded by every member of the town), its vibrant characters (ranging from melancholy to sex-fiend), and the relationships (whether it be between lovers or father and daughter) that are formed. 

The novel is aware of its own existence, its writers, it even seems to be breathing air.  Meta fiction is not a bad thing, I must add. Some people don’t prefer it, and I can quite understand that standpoint, but it can be done well…as long as it’s not done in pattern.  Unfortunately, Foer has us go from one point of view (Sasha’s), to the next (Johnathan’s story), and then the third (letters from Sasha to Jonathan).  This cycle isn’t broken and it does not change, which is a bit disappointing. Clearly Foer believed this was the best concoction for his novel, but this kind of repetition limits how each voice (all very powerful, mind you) can develop.

Furthermore, the devices that Foer uses are a bit unnecessary. Two words, such as, “I will,” do not need to be repeated in italics for two pages.  The liberal in me thought, “Wasting paper…” while the artist in me thought, “I guess that…looks interesting…no, no, it doesn’t.” I understand the intention of the words, but if they are of such significance why need to repeat them so? Surely Foer is good enough of a writer to find another way to emphasize the words and make his readers simultaneously empathize with his characters. Other things, such as the Book of Dreams and History of Trachimbrod, make more sense to me. The entire book is about recording history, so it is a natural tactic to flow into books and records. But then (another device) there are certain words done in CAPITALS, some done in italics, and then some done in BOTH CAPITALS AND ITALICS.  I find this aggravating and there is no NEED for it.

The hiccups aside, I was moved (or disturbed…I’m not sure yet) by this novel. I am hesitant to read anything that has to do with the Holocaust, and I imagine many people have the same reaction. In High School I read a history book about the Balkan States after WWII. I distinctly remember a section about Romania during the War. Jewish people were sent through cattle slaughter houses, as if they were meat to be cooked the next evening.  I had nightmares about it for weeks. Anne Frank, The Devil’s Arithmetic, Night, and many others were used constantly throughout my English education.  My Grandfather liberated concentration camps, and so I have the pictures of dead bodies to prove it. The pictures are now in the Holocaust museum, where they belong, and I am partially glad that I may never see them again.

I often wonder if trauma can be not only personal or cultural, but historical. Can we transmit feelings into one another and pass them down through history? The Jews in Everything is Illuminated are said to have a sixth sense: memory. They are so infatuated with memory, not to mention an almost physical reaction to it, that when they perform an action it is as if they are performing the action as their mother, grandmother, great grandmother, and so forth, have done.  Of course, this particular section of the novel is humorous, but it is essential to the book.  We must remember.

My reaction to the Holocaust, and I won’t lie, is that I want to go running out the door.  It’s as if, when presented with this horrifying reality that we did not even have a part in, we feel that we must escape the room of truth immediately. What Foer does is close the door before we are able to get out. He has presented us with a very likable and readable novel. We don’t want to stop reading, and when the horrifying part comes we all take a deep breath and continue. If we try to run to the door, we realize there is none and that we must continue reading, continue writing, and keep remembering.

December 9, 2008

Some Art

I am avoiding a writing test that I have to complete for a job. Procrastination, procrastination.

I thought I’d show you some of my favorite DeviantArt websites.  The site is over used by some dreadful artists, and has created an environment in which many of the good ones never get credit for their work, nor does it help them make money. But, it is something I keep a look out on for talent. I have considered buying prints, and you should to if you happen to run across a particularly good artist on the site.  Anyhow, let’s get started.

My favorite as of late is ‘kolaboy

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I have used ‘kolaboy’s work in the header of my blog as well.  Most of his work is subtly surreal, and slightly neurotic, but is very detailed.  The tone is always sparse and desolate. I often wonder if he is obsessed with Bjork, simply because the majority of his subjects bare a resemblance to her.  There are many, many of his paintings that I adore.

 

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DntFearThReapr has quite a large range of work. My favorite are her collages.

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She also has quite an impressive prognosis__by_dntfearthreaprarray of colorful, as well as black and white, photography.

 

polaroid__red_shoes_series_by_dntfearthreaprNot to mention her cute collection of polaroids.

 

 

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For those of you who don’t mind morbidity (obviously I don’t at all), there’s godsmorphine.  Her profile used to called “French Dita,” although there are no longer any prints her Dita-ish gallery.

She now has a profile dedicated to her creepy and sometimes bloody characters, which I prefer to think of as my own violent cartoon reel.

 

 

yamamura_by_godsmorphine

nous_sommes_votre_infirmiere_by_godsmorphine

le_coup_du_lapin_by_godsmorphine

 

 

 

the_fall_of_the_ladderboy_by_misskeima

 

misskeima tags herself as an illustrator.  I believe that’s a fair assumption seeing as how her drawings are cute, amusing, and fairly children-story-esque. I love them girl_in_a_box_by_misskeima3for their creativity and sarcasm.

the_prince_by_misskeima

 

 

 

 

Last, but certainly not least, is lloydhughes.  Most of his work is portraits and still life, some in polaroids, some not. He always uses light, exposure, and manages to use whatever is available in the surroundings in interesting ways.

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That’s all for now. Ciao.